I follow a simple algorithm for navigating life: accept the things I cannot change, prioritize the things I can, and then decide whether to act on them. Phalloplasty isn’t on the table for me because I can’t fathom burying my penis under skin, and not being able to see or touch it. That’s why the Hot Rod was the ideal solution for me before and remains so even after metoidioplasty.
When I wear the Hot Rod, it seamlessly integrates with me, much like an artificial heart valve melds with someone’s heart or an artificial hip integrates with someone’s pelvis. It feels as though it’s always been a natural part of me, and I hardly even remember it’s not.
When I reflect on it, I’m still amazed that a mere 100 grams of silicone could drastically improve my quality of life. Yet, I’ve come to see it as akin to the plastic piece supporting a beating heart or the metal enabling someone to rise on two feet each morning. All I ever yearned for was to feel like any other regular man, and with The Hot Rod, I finally achieved that for the first time. It’s a sense of completeness without any cumbersome attachments; it seamlessly integrates with my body like a natural extension in the form of a sleeve. Sometimes, I even forget I’m wearing it.
I vividly recall my first orgasm with it as if it were yesterday; overwhelmed with emotion, tears streamed down my face as I experienced that life-altering moment. Finally, I could truly feel my penis inside somebody.
For years, I’ve grappled with the notion that medical sex transitioning goes against nature, echoing the arguments of its critics who assert that biology dictates gender. But what exactly constitutes “nature”? In my view, nature encompasses everything around us, including ourselves. Even what we label as “artificial” ultimately stems from nature, discovered, isolated, and created by us. Within our nature lies the innate drive to construct and innovate. Recognizing that we are an integral part of nature, every thought and idea we conceive is inherently connected to the whole. So, how can we deem something or someone unnatural when everything we know emerges from it? It’s a philosophical question with countless potential answers.
The sole answer I sought and ultimately discovered for myself is the imperative of following the truth of one’s soul, regardless of the challenges it presents. Thus, I extend my heartfelt gratitude to Transthetics for enriching my life with The Hot Rod and aiding me in realigning with the truth of my soul.
*Given that prosthetic images typically feature against a stark, sterile white background—minimalistic and flawless—they seldom depict them as part of a body: hairy, warm, bathed in natural light. I’d like to share these images (NSFW!!) to illustrate how The Hot Rod and I became one.*
-Matija
Okay first of all, with phalloplasty, they don’t just bury the clitoris, they take the nerve endings, splice them, and insert it into the new phallus so you can actually feel and see your penis. Please get your information correct before you post misinformation.
I agree with you bc I’m 11 weeks post off rff phalloplasty. I had my surgery with the crane center. And for me this experience you had with the Rod is exacting I had with the my Phallus with sex. Was so amazing to feel and see my authentic self have an orgasm with my gf. My own skin…..
Thank you for the post and the pictures. I look forward to owning one, one day.
Thank you for this sharing with us all. I too have the hot rod and your post here reminded me of my first experiences which were so amazing.
It is great to hear that others have had similar euphoria and completeness.